My first experience of Preaching – Oh Dear!

Below is a short clip from the first message I ever preached at El-Shaddai Bradford! I received this DVD today. It was the 3rd time I had ever preached in my whole life! The first time to preach before a couple of hundred people!  The first 2 times I preached, we had just a handful of people.

I received great feedback from those who were listening to me preach. They said great things…they are really nice people. This is not an account of what they saw, or heard. This is an account of what I felt.

2 or 3 weeks or so to the date, Pastor Mark was driving out of the car park and I was getting into my car. He called me over, and after a brief exchange of banter…He told me I would be preaching on the 29th of September. I could barely sleep or even eat well for weeks (you know it’s serious when my food is interrupted!)

On that Wednesday, most things were a blur, all I can remember was the absolute terror I felt as the sacredness of what I believe I was called to do hit me! I thought, dude (I call myself that sometimes), what on earth are you doing?!?

I had been at El-Shaddai Bradford for about 6 years at this point, I had served with these guys, led some, been led by some. We partied together, rehearsed together, joked together and now I was going to preach to them! Sometimes it’s easier to preach to those you don’t know. The stakes are not as high!

I wish I could tell you that I felt I was going to bring the house down! Whist I was convinced that a Word in season from God, I was full of terror! The only other time I felt more terror than this day, was the day I knelt down in a crowded restaurant, heart in my stomach and ring in my hand about to propose to my lovely girlfriend (now wife ;)).

I tried watching it the message today, but I couldn’t watch the whole thing! I can feel today everything I felt that day!

CLICK HERE TO WATCH A CLIP FROM THAT MESSAGE

As I spoke about How God helps the courageous, my heart was in my stomach all the way through! I felt sick all the way through. My mouth and lips were dry, I could barely hear my own voice & I think I was pretty convinced I was going to say something stupid soon!

To be honest, 5 years on, even after preaching at least 3 times a week, I still feel the terror I felt that day. My heart sinks straight into my stomach whenever I remember how sacred it is to preach to people bought by the blood of Jesus.

Today, the only difference is that I now have evidence without doubt that God has truly helps me EVERY SINGLE TIME! That’s not fancy faith talk, that’s the WHOLE truth!

I hope to continue preaching for a long time. But if I don’t (I WILL…chill…there’s nothing between the lines to read!! :))…I am evidence that God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips those who answer His call.

I have by no means reached where I want to reach, but I am definitely not where I used to be.

I wasn’t just preaching about help for the courageous, I was preaching to myself!  Courage is stepping out even when your heart is in your stomach, your lips and mouth are dry. Courage is doing “it” even when you feel you’re about to make a fool of yourself in front of those you love and respect.

Don’t let these things stop you.

Do it if God asked you to.

Do it when you feel sick.

Do it at the risk of failing.

Do it when the when all is crumbling  around you

Do it when all is well.

When I think about the next 5 years my heart sometimes sinks into my stomach…but then I remember the last 5 years and I am filled with so much excitement and hope!

Do what God called you to do and in 5 YEARS TIME,

This picture is a picture of the DVD of the first message I ever preached at El-Shaddai Bradford! I received this DVD today. It was the 3rd time I had ever preached in my whole life! The first time to preach before a couple of hundred people!  The first 2 times I preached, we had just a handful of people.

I received great feedback from those who were listening to me preach. They said great things…they are really nice people. This is not an account of what they saw, or heard. This is an account of what I felt.

2 or 3 weeks or so to the date, Pastor Mark was driving out of the car park and I was getting into my car. He called me over, and after a brief exchange of banter…He told me I would be preaching on the 29th of September. I could barely sleep or even eat well for weeks (you know it’s serious when my food is interrupted!)

On that Wednesday, most things were a blur, all I can remember was the absolute terror I felt as the sacredness of what I believe I was called to do hit me! I thought, dude (I call myself that sometimes), what on earth are you doing?!?

It was one thing to preach at El-Shaddai Sheffield the Sunday before, but even though they are family, I didn’t have a personal relationship with them as I did with the folks in Bradford.

I had been at El-Shaddai Bradford for about 6 years at this point, I had served with these guys, led some, been led by some. We partied together, rehearsed together, joked together and now I was going to preach to them! Sometimes it’s easier to preach to those you don’t know. The stakes are not as high!

I wish I could tell you that I felt I was going to bring the house down! Whist I was convinced that a Word in season from God, I was full of terror! The only other time I felt more terror than this day, was the day I knelt down in a crowded restaurant, heart in my stomach and ring in my hand about to propose to my lovely girlfriend (now wife ;)).

I tried watching it the message today, but I couldn’t watch the whole thing! I can feel today everything I felt that day!

As I spoke about How God helps the courageous, my heart was in my stomach all the way through! I felt sick all the way through. My mouth and lips were dry, I could barely hear my own voice & I think I was pretty convinced I was going to say something stupid soon!

To be honest, 5 years on, even after preaching at least 3 times a week, I still feel the terror I felt that day. My heart sinks straight into my stomach whenever I remember how sacred it is to preach to people bought by the blood of Jesus.

Today, the only difference is that I now have evidence without doubt that God has truly helps me EVERY SINGLE TIME! That’s not fancy faith talk, that’s the WHOLE truth!

I hope to continue preaching for a long time. But if I don’t (I WILL…chill…there’s nothing between the lines to read!! :))…I am evidence that God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips those who answer His call.

I have by no means reached where I want to reach, but I am definitely not where I used to be.

I wasn’t just preaching about help for the courageous, I was preaching to myself!  Courage is stepping out even when your heart is in your stomach, your lips and mouth are dry. Courage is doing “it” even when you feel you’re about to make a fool of yourself in front of those you love and respect.

Don’t let these things stop you.

Do it if God asked you to.

Do it when you feel sick.

Do it at the risk of failing.

Do it when the when all is crumbling  around you

Do it when all is well.

When I think about the next 5 years my heart sometimes sinks into my stomach…but then I remember the last 5 years and I am filled with so much excitement and hope!

Do what God called you to do, In 5 YEARS TIME, based on my own experience, I can’t promise that you would have reached your highest height, I guarantee that  you will be miles away from where you are now.

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